Where's the Joy?

The new kitten has made himself at home. I already have a grown (8-year-old) cat and was not really planning to adopt any more cats until perhaps after his passing. But it was always my desire to have two or three. (I’m drawing the line at two, though.) I never actively went after it because I knew there was really a lot things to consider, not the least of which is that Hermes is the jealous type. These days he gives me these sidelong glances that say, “How can you do this to me?”

It all started when one of Hermes’ alley-cat paramours came back for more loving only this time she had a kitten with her. I heard mewing outside my window that I knew did not sound like Hermes but went back to sleep. Then in the morning when I let him in, a tiny kitten almost flew in after him. Ever since then, he’s been hanging around and a few days later I had started to feed him. Now he’ll never leave. It’s been about three or four weeks. I have named him at least four times, including calling him by a girl’s name at one point (until I verified the equipment). I’ve settled on Mikey. I had named him Michael Angelo and he’s always eating and is little so it reminded me of the little boy in the Life Cereal commercial. So I started to call him just Mikey. The last couple of days he’s been making himself at home and sitting on the sofas. Hermes is upset about it but I try to make up for it by giving him really good food, including baked chicken and beef stew.

It’s nice to have them around when things are so rough. I might need surgery for my sinus problems and I don’t have money and I can’t find a good job and I have no idea what to do with the rest of my life. One good thing is I lost weight due to stress.

I’m also realizing that my spiritual walk has been lacking. It’s weird because I try to do as God wills but of course it’s very hard. I know He hears me though so I’ll just say it:

"I LOVE YOU! I WANT YOU! I NEED YOU!

Please help me to get focused and live a life that glorifies You! Help me find my joy!"