Tomcats and Love

My mechanic is coming over to see me later. His shop is over by where I work but since I'm on vacation, I called him to see if he wouldn't like to pick up his check instead of me driving over there (he lives a stone's throw away from me). He said sure, especially after I told him I've been sick. Which is true- my sinus problem seems worse and I am very glad my appointment is finally going to happen on Thursday. I also think it's great this guy (the mechanic) works on credit. And I don't mean credit cards- he'll let me pay him little by little.

I've been calling an animal rescue place but they don't answer. I am trying to find Mikey a loving home. He's welcome here, at least by me, but unfortunately there are those who would rather see him squashed by the nearest truck. I'm tired of seeing Hermes become more and more distant from me as he feels betrayed. He is the king of my heart, at least as far as cats and other animals go! So it's goodbye Mikey.

I feel guilty. It's weird because Mikester is the cat I've always wanted- loving, happy to be picked up, a purring machine of love. But Hermes, aloof and tentative and mistrustful as he is has carved a deep love in me. He comes first.

I guess this means I can't have children. It shows I cannot deal with having more than one at least.

That's for the best, though, since I just decided I no longer want to get married. It seems men have heavy expectations of a wife that I am not willing to meet. I want freedom! And I don't want to make a mistake and be left by someone or be left feeling like I wish he would leave.

The webpage petfinders.com has a picture of two cats needing to be adopted- Mikey and Maddy! I felt so guilty. There will be another Mikey needing adoption soon....