Rituals

I've had several things that I wanted to post blogs about and that's the problem with me sometimes. I go through dry spells but when I get going, I end up doing like 3 quick posts in one or 2 days and no one reads them because they happen too fast.

Anyway, I just wanted to share with my readers that I am totally freaking out about how fast time has been flying! When I was getting harassed at work, the days were interminable. Well, now that things are smooth it seems that it is five o'clock before I know it and even scarier, it's Friday all over again too! I used to think being 40 was like some weird vague fantasy but now it's pretty much around the corner. In fact, by the time I am totally out of debt and driving a new car and possibly doing what I dream of (being a librarian), I will be 42. I discovered a gray hair yesterday and though premature graying runs in my family (my 23-year-old brother already has gray hair), it seems fitting it would happen at 35.

It's not that I'm freaked out about aging or dying...mostly I am scared of my parents aging and dying. That's terrifying. Especially if they die in the spiritual state they are currently in.

To relieve some stress I have been engaging in a little bit of ritual. It's not a huge thing but I find it relaxing. And this is pouring myself a cup of tea. It sounds dumb and it's such a small thing but I really find that the act of pouring tea is relaxing to me. I got a teapot as a gift some years back and my mom mentioned she also got a similar gift and hers is smaller so she let me have it and I take it to work with me. Both teapots are the type that have a teacup for a bottom- you stack the teapot over the teacup. This makes for a very large teacup, at least in width if not depth. Mine, in fact, has such a large teacup in width that it looks like one of those cappuccino mugs. I would definitely prefer a dainty teacup but the teapot/teacup my mom gave me is much more practical because you can stack these as I said and they travel better than a whole tea serving! (She also gave me a very pretty silver tray but I don't take that to work!)

I drink black tea with some milk and calorie-free sweetener. In the afternoon I drink decaffeinated black tea. Lipton. It tastes good and everything but as I said, it's the pouring action that relaxes me.

I also wanted to state that I find it ironic that a show about amnesia (or an amnesiac), Samantha Who? is one of the shows I watch regularly but realized last night that I never remember it exists until it comes on.