Ice Cream and Cookie Woes

I am "thisclose" to buying the Malibu Pilates Chair. I am still a size 4 but every day I feel I am one potato chip away from being fat. I haven't exercised in a while and yet I keep indulging myself with fattening comfort food and junk. I don't know what's come over me! I also now know why women in show business often look like skeletons- they're traumatized by the camera adding ten pounds. I mean, there's a group picture they took at work and one of my co-workers commented on how chubby I looked and how weird they thought that was because they're looking right at me in person and I look fine! Most of my recent photos (stop tagging me on Facebook, Rafael!) have me looking like fat little pig. Yet in person I look okay. As I said, I haven't increased in dress size. I can even fit into XS dresses and blouses! (Pants, I am a 4 in Women's but I can no longer buy XL in Girl's and get away with it because my waist is bigger.)

There are some old photos of me back in 1997 and '98 where I look great but in reality, in person, I was way too thin. I was a size 1. My ideal weight is like 108, maybe 110 but right now I am a whopping 118. I need that chair so I can be slim and trim again, otherwise there's no way I'll make a date to meet any of the guys I told you about on the last post!